The end of 2017 has come and gone, and I feel like it only just began.
The past year was a year of major growth for me and my family. Not that we aren’t always learning, growing, and changing; but this was growth on a very apparent and deliberate level. Early on in the year, I knew that it would be a year of major growth for us, but I really had no idea how much so.
I knew that I wanted to be more deliberate in training my children in life skills… I just kept thinking, I don’t want them to go to college and not know how to use a washing machine! Lol You really hear that so much anymore, and I don’t want that to be my kids.
While my children’s training was on my heart, in the back of my mind, I knew the end of season was near for me. For many years, I have taken care of children in my home, and I just knew it was coming to an end. So I cast my net into the grownup job world and figured I would wait and see what came my way. Almost nothing came my way! The couple of call backs that I got were not even close to worth taking (and I was not prompted by God to take them).
I really started to feel like I wasn’t good enough to get a regular job. I felt inadequate, and began to question my decision to stay at home all of those years. Not that I regretted choosing to stay home with my children, but I wondered if I set myself up for failure at this point. I had a mini break down and really started to feel despair. So at a midweek service at church I shared my heart and asked for prayer. The next day, I got THE call back.
Excited and nervous, I started a new season. It has flipped our lives upside down, and has forced us all into rapid growth and some major growing pains! So even though it’s been a bumpy adjustment (and still adjusting), it’s for our good. I’m thankful for that.
Major seasons of of growth inevitably come with growing pains. They stretch us in ways that we might not get to without some force. And they strengthen us along the way. God wants us to learn, grow, and mature; becoming men and women who represent Him, and who can be used in this life for His kingdom purpose. It’s a lifelong process until we pass on. We should welcome those growing pains and seek Him continually for strength, endurance, insight, and wisdom; so we come out of each season renewed and refined more and more.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal
Lord, I pray that this year is one filled with growth and a greater passion for serving You. Help us to seek You and follow Your guidance, touching lives for Your kingdom along the way. Our lives are not our own; we are Yours. I love You and hope to honor You, with every breath of my life. Amen