Listen to “I Wanna Go Back” by David Dunn
This isn’t a song that I would add to my worship line up for church, but it doesn’t mean I can’t praise and worship with it. It’s a beautiful reminder of the innocence that we all held as children, whether we knew Jesus or not.
Several years ago I had a revelation about who I am, and it had to do with who I was as a little girl. I looked at the world around me as a magical place, I LOVED to smile, I was overflowing with confidence. And I didn’t worry about what anyone thought of me; I was just me and knew that was a good thing. In a moment, all of this flooded into me and I felt like I did back then. And I thought, this is right, this is me…
Now be that me, but on a new level with the knowledge and love for the Lord that I hold now and will continue to learn. Be that me with the ability to do things as an individual with means to give things and time that will help others. Be that me, and love the Lord simply and unconditionally, trusting His goodness and love.
Matthew 18:2-5 He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. 3 And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5 And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me.
As adults, we let go of simplicity. We care a lot more about what the world has for us and thinks of us than we do of what God wants for us and knows of us. God wants us to come to Him with a child-like faith. Children don’t carry the knowledge of life that adults do. We analyze and try to figure things out on our own, and we are confined by the boundaries of this world. But when we have a child-like faith, we just believe. We trust that because God is God, that He will take care of us and everything will be okay… whatever “it” is. But as adults we know life is more complicated than that, but does it really have to be.
We need to understand that stuff happens even though it’s not always the way God would have it. And regardless, in the end it will be okay whether in life or in death because God is good. And just because something isn’t working out “our way”, doesn’t mean God isn’t making work for His good and perfect purpose.
We also need to care less about what other people think of us. Of course we want to be good examples of and ambassadors for Jesus, but if we are seeking Him and walking daily with Him, then we will be. He will refine us over time. What good is having the biggest and best, popularity and status, self-elevation and keeping up with the Joneses? if it doesn’t point others to god?
1 John 2:15-17 Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father 15 Or world, the Father’s love is not in them. 16 For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world. 17 The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.
Things that were important to me and a part of my character then are the things that still matter. These things are still important an important part of who I am. No ulterior motives, knowingly or unknowingly; no worrying about making the right impressions on this person or that person, just pure and real. Just who He created me and you to be…innocent. Yes, innocent.
God sacrificed His son so that we could stand before Him not just “not guilty”, but innocent. We can look at each other and ourselves and see so much dirt…so much sin, but when He looks at us, He sees us in the fullest beauty that He created us to be. He sees the real us even when we forget or lose faith in ourselves. He just takes us by the hand and says come on little one, you know who you really are. You are the person that doesn’t have to try to be something, but just is. We all are that person. Not one of us should try to be.
We try in our own will and might to be this person that we think we should be because we have lost faith in that simpler person. We lose sight of what is really important and make our own desires number one. But when we serve the Lord with our lives this is where “the real me” shines and lives.
Who are you? Who were you when you think back to your young childhood? Maybe going back every once in a while can help us come to our Father in a more real, humble, pure kind of way.
Lord, Help me to let go of the things that hold me back from being the person that you want me to be. Help me to clearly see what I need to let go of in my life, even though seeing these things may hurt. Please help me not to dwell on these things that have held me back. And help me not to dwell on the things that are in the past, but just look to You now, and know that right now I am a new person and the old is no longer.
Lord, I know that there may be days where these things will try to creep back into my life and heart. Please help me not to be pulled down and discouraged by it. Help me to keep my sight focused on You, on now, and on the path ahead. I trust, Lord that Your plan for my life is for good and not evil, to prosper and not to harm me. And I know that you bring hope into my life. I love you, and give you all the glory, honor, and praise for everything good in me and about me. My life is Yours, Jesus. I know that without You, I am not the real me. Thank you so much. Amen