Listen to “Creation Calls” by Brian Doerksen
Mother’s Day is less than a week away, and I chose this song because as a mother, it is very special to me. I really can’t help but come to tears every time I hear or even think of this song.
I’m not writing a normal type of worship song devotional this week; I want to share my story. I was pregnant with my second child. They were unexpectedly going to be very close in age, but it didn’t bother me in the slightest. I was so excited!
Fast forward to the delivery room… I carried my little guy full term with a very healthy pregnancy. And now it was time to meet him and hold him in my arms. But when he finally came, there was no newborn cry. It didn’t dawn on me until I realized no one handed me my new baby.
I looked around the delivery room. It felt like it was all in slow motion. Everything was silent in my head. There was plenty going on, but I couldn’t hear a thing. I looked from my husband to my mom each of their faces looking in the same direction across the room… I looked over in the direction of there heavy gazes to see my baby lying on a table, lifeless; with a mask over his face as they were trying to pump life back into his body.
It felt like the largest room I had ever been in even though it was just a normal delivery room; I needed to be closer. And in the silence and slow motion, I looked up at my mom still standing next to me. At the same time, she looked down at me with a look of shock on her face, and as soon as she caught my look of fear, she said so clearly and peacefully (it was the only thing I could hear through all of this), “It will be okay”, and she began to pray.
I looked back over at my new baby as they were still working, and all of a sudden heard the tiniest squeak of a cry. That was the best sound I had ever heard in my life. I know that all of this happened in a matter of minutes, but I can’t even explain how long it felt. And then they brought him over to me, and I finally got to hold my sweet Jordan Elijah in my arms.
I remember that not too long after I had Jordan, I heard this song for the first time during worship in church. Then we sang the verse that says, “Listening to a river run, watering the earth. Fragrance of a rose in bloom, a newborn’s cry at birth.” At that moment, I broke down. I was so thankful that I had the privilege of hearing my newborn’s cry at birth, and I got to hold him in my arms, and take him home with me. From that moment, this song has ALWAYS had a beautiful place in my heart. My son is eleven years old now, healthy, strong, and very, very loud when he chooses to be!
As his mother, I am forever grateful! And as a daughter, I am so thankful that my mom was there beside me, speaking comfort to me and standing in prayer.
I know that my story is only one, and I know that there are so many stories of mother’s across time, all over the world. So to all the mothers… All of the mothers of young, old, and in between; to all those who aren’t mothers yet but want to be someday; to all the mothers who embrace all of us around them as their own children whether we need it or not; to all the mothers who couldn’t physically have children but took other children into their homes, lives and hearts as their own; to all the mothers who gave their children up for a chance to have a better life; and to all the mothers who never had the chance to meet their precious babies…
Happy Mother’s Day.
You are a blessing to each life that you touch.
Proverbs 31:28a Her children arise and call her blessed
And to my Mama, I am truly thankful and blessed to have to have YOU as mine. You are beautiful and so giving. Your heart for broken souls has always been inspirational. The way you always take people into your home to sit and eat and be part of the family is something about you that I treasure. And you each of you children perfectly the way each of us needs. I love you so much xoxo
Lord, I love You. I thank You every day for all the life that You surround me with. Thank You for my children; for those that belong to me, and for all that will find comfort and nurturing through me as a mother. Lord, use me as a mother to nurture, help, guide, and be whatever You want me to be to those in my life. Thank You for my life. And I also thank You for my mother. I am so blessed. I love You, Father. Amen.